| Apr. 11th, 2008 @ 12:04 pm (no subject) |
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Genesis' words ran through Angeal's mind.
"I had forgotten how far above me he is. Even after all this time, I still can't reach him, and I still look like a fool when I try..."
"No... she won't have me. I'm broken Angeal. I've been judged... I'm not worthy."
"I know you don't trust me Angeal. It's okay, I understand, I don't trust myself some of the time..."
"You are right not to trust me, Angeal... I don't trust myself."
"I'm still a monster Angeal... The degeneration stopped a long time ago... but that didn't change what I am to my core."
"Seeing both of you the way you are, gives me hope that one day I can be forgiven for all of the things I did. That one day I won't be such a monster anymore. And it bothers me that other people still think of him like that. It means they think of me like that as well."
"he kissed me, and petted my wing and told me I was a pretty angel, and that I could never be a monster..."
He couldn't sleep, watching his friend, torn apart, inside and out, shudder and whimper in his sleep beside him. He should have known before. He'd thought himself a monster for his own deeds, and thus had not given a second thought to Genesis' words on the issue. But now... now they all made sense in a terrifying interlocking system of mental problems-- some of which he'd been encouraging!
Dawn came, and still he did not sleep. Genesis.... |
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